Emily Chubbuck Judson1846-02-28A. Judson02 28, 1846.I do not have "misgivings" except on my own account. When I think of my own utter uselessness--my unfitness for any thing except to write stories, I can not help being sad; and when I look away over to Burmah, and see you in your study, and me engaged in things that have never interested me and that I do not know how to do, spending day after day alone, my very heart retreats in utter consternation. I do not know how I shall get along with it. But the Heavenly Friend who I believe has directed all this, will be still a better friend than any one on earth; and you, dearest, will be considerate and patient--I know you will. You don't expect me to be very good or very sensible; but I shall take no advantage of that. I will be as good and wise as I can. God in heaven help me!