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Jeannette Hulme Platt1855-08-28Cyrus Platt. . I want to get home; I am very sad and lonely. Through all this great trial I have turned in vain to see one familiar face that cared for me. Tell Mrs. Murray how I longed for her quiet, sympathizing look! Many kind friends ministered to our dear one, and stood by us through these long, distressing days; but I felt as if to the parish I was "only Mrs. Canfield's poor little sister from Ohio." I have felt such loneliness as I never knew before. But for these children,--what comforts they have been! Nettie has two teeth--lower ones; has improved every day since we came; has enjoyed so much being carried up and down the cool streets in her nurse's arms. She has felt none of the gloom and sadness that poor E. has seen, though I have tried by every means in my power to keep her out of the circle of its influence. Ellie looks badly, and has not been well these few past days. It would have been an unspeakable comfort to me if we could have been together, and I know of no one who could better comfort brother C---- by sympathy than yourself. But this was denied. I hope you will write to him a full, private letter of your sympathy and prayers in his great bereavement. He wanders about, hardly knowing what he is doing. I cannot get him to sleep of nights. I have been with him parts of every night, and tried in every way to soothe and comfort. God will comfort him, I know; and days of brightness, I hope, will again come over his path. But never more can such sister's love be given back to me. The only eye that-- 109 --from infancy my faults had no power to dim,--the only heart that has loved as if no imperfection could be mine! Dearest, it is not that I do not value the deep, true love that God has given to me in you, or that I am not grateful for the happy days that have been found at your side. But this was no common sister; the love she gave to me was no common love. I feel, oh how I feel her loss! Think of all the many, many years that our thoughts and feelings blended, and the current of our lives was as one! Think what she has, what she has not been to me! Since her eleventh year my example and guide, the counsellor and comforter of all my youth! In my faithlessness I have said, "Can I ever get Home without her?" God forgive this sinfulness! Is she not my example still? "Her memory," Dr. Tyng said, "could only lead upward and onward every one whose heart had loved her.""Jinty, seas cannot divide us." I know it. It is only "Jordan's wave" that now separates us. We are now "one army of the living God." "Angels, and living saints and dead, But one communion make."Since I have been yours, dear husband, I have kept back not one thought that has been in my heart, which is so wholly yours; and I must say what I now think--not entirely new, for a shadow of it has seemed upon me all this spring, notwithstanding I have been in perfect health. I shall not be very, very long behind my sister. Our family have an organization (some members of it) that was not made for long life. The never-ceasing action of the whole nervous system in power and force that cannot long continue. I would not pain you, darling. We and ours are in His hand. I do not dare say this because I feel the meetness for heaven that has so long been her's. Oh, no, no. May now her spirit, her words, her whole life and death, be sanctified and blessed to me! In her own loved hymn:-- "Nearer, my God, to Thee, Nearer to Thee; E'en though it be a cross That raiseth me; Still all my song shall be, Nearer, my God, to Thee."